One Month

It's been one month....one month since Mark had to go in for surgery and everything changed.  I have so many mixed emotions about all of this.  I look back and say it's only been a month.  It feels like a year.  This is all the beginning of this journey.  We are so happy to be home, but also feeling a little stressed of whats ahead.  Mark will start back in school this week for 2 days.  Then maybe if all goes well he will go 2 full days the following week.   Chris and I on the other had have been struggling with our decision on the transplant.  We hope to come to a decision soon.  We are thinking a lot about what is best.  Once we move forward it will be the start of a great thing!  Mark is into his routine and doesn't seem to mind the trips to Boston.  He asked frequently when will I be going to "dee-all-a-sis".  He loves the nurses and his job feeding the fish!  He just seems like nothing is a bother.  Even when he is sick or has a rough day, he just goes with the flow.  I on the other hand feel like a zombie.  I am tired, I don't sleep well...always worried about Mark.  Chris is a trooper.  He has had to keep everything together and take care of the household.  We went from a "normal" two parent working home, down to one in a flash.  It has been a lifestyle change in a sense...we are much more frugal.  In the end I wouldn't change that.  There has always been a bond for the three of us like any other family.  Now it's better we don't want to miss any moments apart.  That will never change.  So it is fitting that we make the one month mark on Mark's favorite day...Sunday Funday!